30 Days of Me

     I recently visited a friends blog that gave me a great idea to help me keep my blog going and maybe help me get into doing more posts on my blog. Supahwoman a day in the life of, or AKA Trisha Jones, has started out with a bang and gave a listing of the different challenges each day. Here they are listed below:

Day 01 A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 02 The meaning behind your Blogger name
Day 03 A picture of you and your friends
Day 04 A habit that you wish you didn't have
Day 05 A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06 Favorite super hero and why
Day 07 A picture of someone, something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08 Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09 Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10 Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11 Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12 How you found out about Blogger and why you made one
Day 13 A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14 A picture of you and your family
Day 15 Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16 Another picture of yourself
Day 17 Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18 Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19 Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20 Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21 A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22 What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23 Something you crave for a lot
Day 24 A letter to your parents
Day 25 What I would find in your bag
Day 26 What you think about your friends
Day 27 Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28 A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29 In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30 Who are you?

     I think challenges like these are great because it makes us stretch our minds on who we are. I know myself I find that I don't think of myself as a very interesting person with a very interesting life. Do you ever find that when people ask you what you have been up to, or what's new, you say nothing much. For me it's because I think that I am boring or that people would not be very interested in hearing about my everyday life. Even with my blogging I find that unless I have something really cool to share like a scrapbook project, or decorating idea that I don't want to put it into words.
     Also with being unemployed for the last year I have had a really hard time figuring out where I want to go with my life. It's like I have spent the last 12 months just coming down off the anger of being without a job and the stress that the job it's self had me under. However, it's now time for me to figure out more about who I am, where I want to go, what I want to accomplish with my life. Being 38, unemployed and having no children, I don't seem to have a lot of single minded focus. It's OK to dabble in lots of different things, that's how you learn about the things your like or dislike, but it is time to really start narrowing the field. It's difficult and often a depressing thing to contemplate at this junction of my life. I'm almost 40 and by this time in my life I thought that I would have so many different things than what I have now. Not that I am complaining that my life is bad, or I don't have anything because I am very blessed in my life. It's things like having the job security and finances in line to help start doing all the things that we dreamed about like traveling and having a home of our own.
     I'm looking forward to digging into myself a little deeper and finally hoping to convince myself that I am a person of worth and that I have much to offer the outside world other than just a nothing much attitude. I look forward to having you follow me on this journey and if you decide to do the challenge on your own blog leave me a link so I can follow along with you as you go through this challenge as well.